today 3 friends that are precious to me (and i don’t use that word often) stopped by my house to visit at different times.
i have felt really isolated by how busy i have been with my internship, work, and of course, the cherry on top, homework. i had been feeling forgotten in the sense that most of my friends stopped passing along the invites because my answer is always “sorry, but i can’t i have ____”. totally understandable, but it still never changed the left out feelings of “why am i always not doing anything but work” that kept running in my head.
those 3 different friends missing me and wanting me to be happy made something in my brain click, something that wasn’t a school concept.
long story of me rambling short: i am really going to try to just be happy that i am alive because fucked up shit is going to continuously happen anyway (no matter how hard i try to prevent it from occurring) and i’m tired of not l i v i n g.
there’s things that make me smile (whether you see it or not) and i will try to remember them more often.